As I pull out of the parking lot at work yesterday I sent Lauren a message to call me when she got out. Within seconds my phone was ringing and a smile came accross my face. I look down to see not Lauren's name poping up, but Marians. (the new research nurse im now dealing with on the new study) My heart sank. I didnt know what to expect or what news she was calling to tell me. I pick up with my heart rate also picking up. "hey Marian, hows it going?"
I started the conversation by warning her that the road I was driving on was notorious for having dead spots and if the call dropped that I would call her back. What happened next is a little fuzzy. The way I have been telling it is that I blacked out. Not actually, just was so over come with emotion and thoughts i kinda forget everything that she said. If you havent figured it out already, it was good news.
The new study that I am qualifying for has officially been cleared to start. Like I said, what was said after that is a blur. Not going to lie, got a little teary and started goign through my head what the next few months of my life might be like. If I thanked her once i must have thanked her 10 times. The call lasted for about 4 minutes, andIi drove that whole road without dropping the call once. I'm looking at it as a sign that its meant to be that I got that call.
Ok, so what's next you're probably wondering. This study is being done at multiple locations, so to keep everything the same they have an outside company setting all the sites up the same. They plan on having this company into MGH in may or june and will be getting me in as soon as possible after that. They plan on getting me in to meet the surgeon before that so we all start to get comfortable with eachother.
Lauren asked me in the middle of the day if I had heard from Boston at all as they mentioned a week or two ago that they were going to be sending me some information. This is not the first time that she has had a feeling about something that ended up happening. Its good to know I am going into some of the most important months of my life with a good luck charm.
By the time I was done talking to Marian, I had enough time to let out a very loud WOOOOOOOOOOO. Then the phone was ringing again, it was lauren. I asked if she was sitting down and dropped the news. I could tell she didnt know quite what to say at first, much like me the news took her by complete surprise. We talked for about 10 minutes or so as I told her the news and what Marian had to say. I was still at a loss for words and we were just so excited. Even now, a day later I dont know what to say. I have been waiting for almost 3 years for the phone call that says we are ready to do you just need to set everything up.
I will inform all of you more on the details of this new study once I understand it better myself. They sent me the consent forms yesterday and I am working my way through it to see what I have gotten myself into. Excitement doesn't seem like the right word to describe my last two days. I will keep all of you included on all the updates. Thank you for all of the support and good thoughts that have gotten me to this point. I'll need them to get through the rest so keep them coming.
